As this last week draws to a merciful close, I am reminded of all the good that has come out of the last 6 months worth of stress and anxiety. We have made a major reroute in our mutual careers that has greatly changed the way our family will function, for the better. This week feels like the dust is almost settling. I know that there are still some hurdles to leap over. But earlier this week, even when I was feeling stressed, Erin turned to me one night and said, 'it's so good to have laughter back in our family'. And I couldn't agree more. The last 5 years have built a cumulative wall of soul sucking stress around us, leaving us all feeling helplessly isolated from each other. What was clear over the last year (especially with me starting back to work full time out of necessity) was that something had to change.
And change it did.
Someone asked me a few weeks ago if I had known going into this major change how it was going to be - the level of stress, anxiety, etc - would I have done it anyway? Without even a moments worth of pondering I answered a resounding 'yes'. And I really meant it. Even in the most brutal moments when I thought I couldn't take it anymore, I really knew that I could and would take more. That I was strong even in my weakness. And I know I've blathered on about this in such a horribly cryptic way this week, but I needed to process through some of it here.
Feel free to just skip over this last post about it while you wait for the lighter hearted variety that is sure to come back soon. I'm sure that my sense of humour is about to kick into full swing after so.much.melodrama.
Till tomorrow.
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